I feel like I’ve somehow lost my voice. Not that I don’t have lots of things to write about and more things still going round and round in my head.
I keep telling myself how much better I felt when I was writing my emotions down on this blog, but just like with exercise; you need to get back in the routine and starting is the hardest part.
I am still attending my celebrate recovery meetings on Friday nights, but no longer do my step study. I stopped and felt I needed to focus more on my grief than the step process right then.
I continue to go to therapy, but can make it longer betweens visits. I am trying to rely more on my own coping skills vs. needing to vent or cry or talk to someone else about things every week.
I have begun going to a grief support group once a week, and I have made wonderful friends that understand. An outgrowth of going to that meeting has led me to being included in a newly formed group to help addicts and their families. A grass roots, down in the trenches group made to be with families and their loved ones through the whole journey.
I’m busy with the girls activities: soccer, dance, t-ball, school programs, etc…
Still trying my hand at on-line dating although this has really gone by the way-side. I honestly don’t know if there is a man on Earth that can handle my kids and me and what we are going through. Guys my age want to be spontaneous and go out or travel at a moment’s notice. That will never be my life.
I am still obsessed with the book and movie, “The Shack”. I have watched it online and it will be officially released May 30 on DVD. I have bought other books written by the author and also a study guide book to go along with the story. My favorite is the daily reflections book that has a quote and explanation from the book/movie for every day of the year.
Hope to get back to posting often. I’ve missed y’all.